Here's the first day of kindergarten photo shoot! For Cal, today was no biggie but I was feeling a little sad. Truthfully, I've been feeling a little sad about today for awhile now. They gear up the kids by doing all these "activities" in the weeks preceding - a playdate at the playground, a popsicle party, a 45 min orientation with a few other kids and the teacher, a half day of kindergarten....I mean really COME ON. I think even Cal was wondering when the real thing was going to start. For me it was like slowly cutting off my arm...if you're going to lose the arm anyway, you might as well just hack it off as quickly as possible right? The more I thought about it the more I wondering what I was going to do without my chatterbox. He IS like my sidekick all day...constantly yelling down from the playroom, "MOM where are you? When are you coming up?" every five minutes. What will I do when I don't need to stop for pee breaks every 20 mins? Then it lead to thoughts like what will Ben do without his best friend in the world. Those boys are thick as thieves. They do everything together, including going to school together last year.
So today came as we all knew it would...and luckily it was busy this morning and no times for thoughts other than LET'S GET TO SCHOOL ON TIME! We got there a few mintues later than I'd hoped but it worked out to my advantage since we weren't sure if they were waiting at the door to all walk down together or not. A kind, old woman asked what we needed since I walked through door saying to Cal, "I don't know" and offered to take him down to the classroom herself. I thought this is was best for me since I knew standing around would start to make me weepy. So I gave a little hug and a "Have a good day" and tore out there before a tear could roll down.
Cal, on the other hand, was totally fine. Even for the first trial day when they only went a couple hours he told me he wanted to walk down to his classroom by himself. I figured this was ok but then got all anxious when the other mothers were standing and WAITING with their children. Cal promptly told me to leave, he'd just wait with his friends...okay! So I did but then felt horrible for not staying with him. All the other parents assured me he was fine and proud of himself for doing it himself but I felt sad for me mostly!!
He came out of school today and gave what I think was a FAKE yawn. He knows he's supposed to be tired after a "long day" and I'm sure he was thinking he'd get TV if he needed to rest after school since he heard of the neighbor girls doing this! Very funny. I obliged since this was a special first day. The first thing he said to me was, "That didn't seem like a long day at all! It only felt like an hour!" I can only take that to mean that today was a success! He told me he sat next to a VERY funny boy named Blink at lunch. I'm assuming his name is Blake but who knows. He told me they were so busy his teacher forgot recess. (On the half day she forgot snack and Cal was STARVING). I guess to her credit she used to teach first grade so she's just learning the schedule but come on! Who forgets recess and snack! SERIOUSLY?
The rest of us had a quiet day...I've found it hard to get things ready for school and get ready to take the boys out on errands right after dropoff. This will probably get easier once Ben is already at school. Ben will start at 8am and dropoff for Cal starts at 8:45. We got home from errands around 10am and I found myself unable to really do anything. I kept looking at my watch and felt like I needed to just wait around until it was time to pick up Cal. I remember having the same weird sense of feeling lost when he started preschool too. I mean, it's not like I didn't have the other boys or have 100 things I could be doing. I just felt nervous and like I was going to forget him if I did anything though! Around 11:30 Ben asked me when we were going to pick up Cal. He seemed fine with waiting until after nap. It WAS eerily quiet around here. I wonder if it's only a matter of time until the other boys notice that HEY they can talk and be heard now!! Of course, day 1 and both boys are sleeping at 2:45. I woke them both up, threw them in the car with no shoes on and raced to the school to get there before Cal got out. Ok, I didn't really need to race there, the school is a half mile away. I've got some teenagers and another mom who just offered to help me with pickup since the other boys will most likely be napping so we'll have to put a plan into place!
So far so good...more to come I'm sure...
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